It's a minute til' one and I decided too write before I finally go to bed and face tomorrow. I mean, today. The morning light. I realized that my last post was a bit well, unplanned and all over the place. Can't complain, really. I was damn confused and worried. Anyway, I don't really have anything planned for this post, but I really just wanted to write.
Fear ; the feeling of being afraid.
Now, the definition up there is really just a mere gist of what fear really is. Fear is subjective. It depends on how you see it, on how you feel it. What you think of it. What are you afraid of? For me, it's not being to see my family ever again. And to think of it, that is just one of the many fears of mine.
You see, people fear many different things. Yet, we all have one thing in common. We fear rejection. Ever hesitated when wanting to ask someone out? Or perhaps the insecurities that haunt you whenever you're around your friends, worrying that one day you'll be out of the circle for 'not fitting in'? Honestly, I fear rejection too. Trust me, I do. Up until today, I still don't have the guts to tell the boy I've liked for 3 years about my feelings (yikes this got a little personal). But never mind that, the thing is here, we are all the same. I bet even the boy I like is hesitating to tell a certain someone about his feelings, too. Gah. It all doesn't matter. Truth is, rejection is normal. And so is the fear towards rejection. I'm not going to tell you to say, "Oh, f*** it." and do whatever you want to do (e.g confessing to your all time crush) because come on, even I wouldn't have enough courage to do exactly that under certain circumstances. But you know what we can all do? Embrace the fear and turn it into a motivation. Hey, I was once scared that I was going to be rejected by the entire school society, and look where I am now. Prove to the people that fear does not stop you from doing what you want to do. In certain conditions and circumstances, it's perfectly okay for you to stop and not do it. Wait. Until the day you finally have the courage to do it, the best thing to do is wait.
In conclusion, what I'm really trying to say is it's okay to give in to your fears and insecurities. But you can't easily give up! Turn your fears into motivations and I promise you, great things will come.
p.s. Til we meet again, ciao! Pls pray that I'd go through my semester exams smoothly.
p.p.s. I met the one and only Aiman Azlan! (check out my instagram ; alyaaziran , for the picture)
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