Yikes

Bulletproof Love - Pierce The Veil

My ustazah prayed for her soulmate since she was 17, so no criticizing what I'm going to write about, yeah? (excuses, la da da)

It dawned on me that I've got a bunch of shitty attitude and habits that might bother some people, and it also dawned on me that oh my god, how can my future husband handle this emotional mess? So I felt like writing a long-ass post about this and that that I think would definitely embarrass me, but I am already a humiliation, so why not?

So let's start with Issue #1.

Issue #1; I'm emotional af. I cry at unreasonable times, about irrational things in the most hideous way anyone could possibly cry. Especially at that time, (you know when). It's probably my teen hormones going cuckoo before it finally rationalizes itself at a certain point of my life, but what if it stays this way? I definitely think no one can put up with this, one of the reasons why I'm never getting married.

Issue #2; I get irritated so easily. It's as easy as flipping a switch, I swear. Do something and you might ruin my entire day. Oops. I guess I don't live up to the expectations of my name (alya sabrina means great patience, oh god). My patience is as fragile as ice, it might break anytime I swear. Especially if I like you. Because you irritate me most for making me like like you, and then you go and irritate me for real. Bad move, love. Whoops. Now you know who they meant when they put up "Bride kills newly-wed husband due to extreme irritation" on tomorrow's front page of the newspaper.

Issue #3; Holy guacamole I'm clingy af. AND not like normal clingy, like clingy clingy. I might be calling/texting you just to know your whereabouts and I'll miss you like crazy until I turn cray cray for real. Yikes,

Issue #4; I'm such a hugger. Like, I like hugging things (and people). So much. How does one live with someone like this? Ugh. This doesn't even need elaborations because it gives so much definition already.

Issue #5; I talk a lot. Who the hell wants to listen to me ranting about life hierarchy and the unfairness of life and how I want to change the world ,etc??? I might feel like telling you about something and trust me, it'll wander off topic so abruptly and I'll talk about things completely unrelated. Hence again why I'm never getting married.

Issue #6; (Last one, I swear) I don't know what I want. I might want you and then not and then yes. [but if I married you then yes obviously I want you] but that's the point. I might not talk to you for 20 seconds but then realize I'm the shitty one in the relationship and be normal again....or maybe I might not talk to you for a day only to miss you and cry about stupid things (issue no.1) I did and apologize my heart out to you (and repeat the process two days later).

But yes, that's about it. Truthfully I'm getting lazy to write, but this is long enough for my standard, lol.  Yikes. That says a lot about this blog and how much I update, no? Heh.

This is my cue to say, "If you think you can put up with this attitude, sign up here." Jk. I'm not serious, no. Not at all. When the time comes, it'll come. For now, I'll just live my single life like I always do.

p.s woah this post is so childish and weird. It'll probably be up for a couple of days and I'll delete it if I remember. Have a good day, everyone.
p.p.s I won't be updating for a while, leaving my iPod back home for a couple of weeks. Hmmm.